Intoxication

Feelings
so many feelings
comin’ at me like a stampede
can’t outrun these feelings
for you, from you, with you
don’t know why
I can’t escape you
now I’m not so sure
I want to
fall deeper, harder into
all these feelings
swirling in your undertow
you leave me reeling
and I know you have some
feelings, too
I can see clearly
you do —
pulse quickening
desire thickening
and what else hangs
in the air between?
Not quite sure
but it’s electric
shocks me inside
its dominating presence
leaves me a little
uncertain, hesitant
yet I keep swimming farther
into our feelings
past melting into present
caught in a time warp
what was, what would be
but what is?
feelings — is it love?
I think it could be
is it worth it?
I worry
we’ve never known
stability, but
I just can’t help
myself with you
just want to help
myself to you
can’t resist
even if I’m a fool
for all these feelings crashing down
like waves of an endless sea
and now I know, surely
beyond all doubt or mystery
I’ll never really, truly
be free…
from you
or all my feelings.