Regret

My Darling,

Since you’ve been gone, the regrets have been piling. “You only live once,” they said. “Follow your heart.” Whatever it was I was after, whatever it was I thought was right… I don’t want it anymore, it doesn’t matter. Lately, I just want to take it all back. More than anything, that one moment. That one, yes, I know you know it: I made the conscious decision NOT to try. And the more time that goes by, the more I question myself. What exactly have I been doing? What has been to gain from all of this? Whatever it is, I’m genuinely not sure it’s been worth it. I’m not sure any of this has been worth losing you over.

 

Yours,